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When you look into the night sky I can see something shining,

As if the stars are looking back and actually smiling

At your long golden hair, and on this spring night

A pleasant smile you share

Because no one comes close, at least not by little

For you are one of a kind, like a flower’s first petal 

You bloom with the sun and soak up the rain

You send my heart miles high and destroy my disdain

If a flower, so subtle, can cure me so well.

why must you leave when my heart starts to swell?

Still Winter passes by and Spring will come soon.

Then again the subtle flower will bloom

Though, if only Spring began when Winter howls,

The flowers of spring would be tall as towers.

Seasons are not eternal, they soon become our past.

Yet every moment with you will forever last. 

(So, dear child

Tell me what it is

you so resent?)

You are just an infestation;

A ghoulish soul I must repent!

You reap what others sew

Your ploys, caddish distractions

To enforce a fatal blow!

(Oh haha, How foolish you are

To think I’d bare your skin

A festering scar.

I’ve saved your life you know?

Remember those nights

Out on your “Lonely Road”?

You would rev to the limit

Put your conscious on hold.

But it was I who hit the brakes

Before the bend swallowed you whole!)

You had no RIGHT!

It was MY destiny to unfold

Be it high-speed mutilation

Or bottled scripts on hold

It was mine to decide

Not your hand to fold!

(Be that as it may

You speak no sense today

You cry for love, though

One cannot love

Beyond a hallowed grave

I gave you new life,

Your soul I fucking saved!

Now you accuse me of scrutiny? 

That I have misbehaved?!)

I, I, I, I don’t know what to say

I have decided to try and lighten the mood on my blog by posting one of my older poems. You know, those days when “love” didn’t seem so far out of reach. I hope you all enjoy! 🙂

I lose my mind with sea-green eyes glaring back at me

Lost in your gaze, I am simply amazed with this girl I see.

Feeling the beat of my heart rip my chest apart

It’s what you do to me

You make wrong feel so right.

Let us light the way; we can set the world afire.

Darling, we can talk all night. Speak of our desires.

Or you can show me the way

Skip to the best part

Show me this love I’ve been missing;

Play it back from the start. 

She’s so unbelievable.
I get chills just from her breath
(You fool she’s a GOD!
You are not worthy
Of her breast!)
 
I long for her caress.
Though, why wait?
(You lack a spine,
She craves a man
Not swine!)
 
Watch your tongue!
I am a part of this soul
Too.
You cannot overrule
A lover’s quarrel
For you lack compassion
Let’s not even start,
On your lack of morals.
 
(I am logic, you
Feign creation.
Now tell me who,
Lacks motivation?)
 
Love is all I require
It far outweighs your
Dictatorial desire.
It silences your call,
That is what you fear.
Ignored by your own captive
after screaming in his ear!
 
(You lie!)
Oh dear, is that a fly buzzing near?
(I’ll be back…)

Red lipstick, wet lips stick

To his own in deflection.

Don’t risk it, she’s wicked

You can taste the poison.

Tensions rise with a paring knife

A sign on his back

in the mirror, “Insert here”

She laughs

He shouts to an empty room.

“You coward,

You’ll be back!”

She’s gone, you’ve just cracked.

Since I am stuck at work doing some overtime, I thought I’d pop in with a short poem to maintain my sanity.

Every time we talk its like a broken conversation.
Both entities present, one lacking motivation
His attempts half witted, her remarks leave scars
They fall through cracks like the rovers on mars
They were there, but dissappeared. Just like you.

 

I have never felt this way before.
An overwhelming emotion,
That my words may not reward.
They will tear me apart before
I can speak through clenched teeth.
A feeling as relentless as
The pounding in my chest.
From a heart that has lost itself,
in the maze which is my mind.
Yearning to break out from
A body that keeps it shackled.
Locked away without the love it cries for.
Still, it beats with vigor, no matter,
Its fate assured.
Instead it makes me write these pages
Filled with moments at its weakest.
Hoping these bleak reminders be
Enough to tempt its warden.
“Set me free, let my soul say what it needs
Let me fall in love and fall away
Into the stars which are her eyes.
Where the thought of her touch
Is enough to last me the night.
Keep the darkness from a heart
That has seen the path to light.
For every moment spent in the shadows,
The memory of her smile still shines bright”
Yet my mind keeps its pace,
while my feet stay planted.
Remaining stagnant in the shallows of my soul.
Wading in a pool of memories wrought.
Where my dreams can’t find their way to you.
No being has brought me to this point
When return is just an afterthought.

This was an assignment from one of my high school English teachers. She gave each student an image depicting a victim of the Holocaust; then we were to write a short story describing what life for that particular victim might have been like. My image was of a young boy whose clothes were tattered and torn with a smudge of mud grazing his cheek. He looked into the camera with dead eyes, as if what he saw in there changed him forever. I can only hope my description does the kid justice.

 I Saw It All

I saw it all in The Ghetto. Life, death and torturing. This was a place of horror. When the secret police raid The Ghetto we crawl into small holes in the wall and day after day one by one we would come out until it is all safe. The police would take older people first and then the children. The conditions were terrible yet we were forced to bear it. One day we were captured and sent to a camp. There we sat cold, wet and damp…

I saw it all. The black smoke and gray ashes fell like snow from the furnaces within the camp. This wasn’t snow though, snow is pure, this was something much more sinister. The stench was unbearable; they were burning dead bodies in those furnaces. Flesh, human flesh, was melted off the soul of some poor woman or child. Walls all around me with towers that look like sharp knives cutting through the thick black smoke. As ash lands on my cheek a tear wipes it off of my face. I was sure that I would end up in the furnace.

When we entered, the guards had us strip to nothing and they washed us off with disinfectant. Although by now the only thing they had left to strip us of was our dignity. I could feel it burn on my skin but that was the least of my worries. Where is my mother? They led us into the next room and they shaved off all of our hair; lice they said. After that we were all thrown outside onto the dirt and sand. They yell at us to get into a straight line and if anyone talks we get a whip across the face.

So we stand still waiting for instructions and then a few guards come out with boxes of what looked like cloth and as the guards unveiled it, it showed a white tunic to wear as a prisoner. On this tunic it had the Star of David with the letter “P” in the center. we had to wear these constantly back in Poland. I always saw it as a form of enslavement and had thought I got rid of it forever, but now I am back where I started though now in a more terrible place.

The first day passed and already I felt weak. Nothing to eat for 48 hours and only very little to drink. I am worried about how I’m going to get out of here.

 

Finally four icy months later our camp was liberated by the U.S. army and we were finally free. But, the feeling of freedom didn’t feel like it had before. It was empty, like the stomachs of my fellow captives. I saw a photographer and as he aimed his camera at me, I had a look of sadness and disappointment because what I have seen inside these walls will haunt me forever. My mind is still trapped.

 

He had a sort of unhinged excitement in his voice when speaking with this girl, his best-friend. Never for a moment did he take his eyes off of hers as she let words flow out of her mouth like a genteel waterfall, floating down into his ear canals; burrowing continuously her name into his head… Elaine Moore, or Ellie, as Gerry would call her.

No, Gerry had not harbored these feelings since they were kids. No, he was a young man going through mental and physical changes. Some call it “puberty”, and others may call it “high school”. And he had only begun to see what the female race could do to affect his demeanor. Ellie, was the only one who sent him so far beyond the limits of emotions that he never thought possible. But having Bella, as his rowdy girlfriend wasn’t a bad 2nd place. No matter how vigorously Bella, had tried to please him, Ellie had always taken the top slot in his priorities. Goodness she was a love-sick puppy, and Gerry was absolutely blind to the destruction he was causing Bella. She may have been one to run-around on guys before, but she always said that something about Gerry, made her feel like she could never be hurt by him. That he was the epitome of a modern chivalrous man. Never did she think once of reconnecting with one of her old flames. In her eyes, they were all minced meat compared to Gerry. But this was still OUR Gerry. The skinny, lanky, dorky, child. And boy did she adore him. Nothing could have prepared her for the end.

It wasn’t until the day that Ellie, left for her new destination that Gerry realized how much he truly cared for her. No longer as just a friend, but a suitor. He was going through an unmistakable change from a disinterested card-holding, he-man woman hater, to an intellectual lover overnight.

He realized how much he truly ached to hear her voice reverberating in his ear drums again without the aid of the copper wired telephone lines. How he longed to touch her lips with his own; even if a kiss would be too much, he would do with a touch of her hand against his. Just something to break the physical boundaries that only now seemed so formidable.

But where did these feelings come from? Surely, Gerry did not know himself. He assumed that since she had turned into a full-blown hotty- seemingly over the summer- (for lack of a better term) that he was simply becoming sexually attracted to her. With his reasonable mindset, this was all he chalked it up to be. But still, something ached deep inside him night and day so long as their distance apart remained the same. And soon he would have to either act on its call, or forever let it fall silent. Again, as much the man of reason he attempts to be, he cannot find a reasonable end for this situation. And in turn, he vowed to one day secure the hand of his true love, or potentially watch their friendship die in the wake of catastrophe.