It hits like a breath of fresh death.
Reliving days now six feet under,
rekindling memories of affection and treachery.
No escape from the blinding actions of my youth.
No longer do I fear the end,
no longer do I fear oblivion,
the nothingness that may envelope my soul as I
walk away from your overwhelming presence… after all,
you’ve got quite the reputation for doling out death-blows.
So I’ll take my chances out on that lonely road.
He looks on in amazement
At this woman thrust into his life.
Without choice or regret
He is torn between the light and
The dark corner he’s spent
Most of his life.
It’s happening all over again.
Boy meets girl, boy falls for girl,
Boy destroys himself trying to abstain
Boy loses himself in another
Of his darkest realms, created
In the mind that can’t know any better
He doesn’t know what is real
Or what is forged. He’s confused
It eats him alive, it tears at his soul.
He lets no one else know, he lives alone.
Yet he wants terribly to love again.
He just wants to once again, feel.
If I saw you today
Would I run the other way?
If I saw you today
Would you ask me why I frayed?
If I saw you today
Would I even know what to say?
If I saw you today
Would you turn your back on me?
If I saw you today
Is there a chance you’ll shout with glee?
If I saw you today
Would you utter any form of apology?
If I never see you again
Will I forget the days we cherished?
If I never see you again
Will my heart always remember the day it nearly perished?
If I never see you again
Will I ever forgive your truths embellished?
I hope I do, I hope one day I can truly forgive you.
Like a predator lurking in the dark, you surprised me.
With razor sharp talons that sunk into my soul
And teeth of sharpened ivory, strong yet elegant
Gripped at my neck in tender suffocation
Like a predator lurking in the dark, you found me.
Like the swift winds of Fall, you breezed through my heart
tickling with tendrils my ventricles to ease the suffering
Brushing along the scarred tissue beneath leathery skin
You took me by the hand, and lead me to my slumber
Like the swift winds of Fall, like a shot through my heart.
You were the song of angels flooding my every thought
Invading dire moments with hope and tranquility
Your voice makes life like lemonade, so sweet
With a bite at the end, with a chill in my cheeks.
You were the song of angels, in every thought, entranced.
Like the warmth of a midsummer’s night, you sheltered my head
In the crest of your breast, stroking my hair with your radiance.
You lull me to sleep in this bed you’ve made.
With your linen and throws and the down plumed and billowed
Like the warmth of a midsummer’s night, you let me rest my head.
I find myself betrayed by the morning’s light
Yet I find truth in the night’s dark sky
Blood shot eyes find redemption in the shadows
The truth burns away in the light strong or mellow
I see myself trapped behind these walls
No way out, no one to hear my calls
Alone in this darkness, I wish for day
At least then my true self will be stowed away
I fear not what night brings my way
But the fear lies in knowing what they will say
The time will come when night will turn to day
My eyes will be open, crooked smile
And my shadow will be sheltered in denial
Every part of your body resembles something of the Shoreline Sunrise; your hair is the soft white sand gleaming in the rays of the newly awoken sun. Your eyes are the warm solar radiance as it rises above the frigid air of night. Your skin, as gentile as the soft blue sky that awaits. Your lips, curl like the waves setting on the ocean shore. And the glorious sound of waves colliding brings me back to the day we first kissed in such a heavenly setting. And as our waves collide, they create a mist where the sun reflects its majesty in a rainbow nearly as beautiful as the woman who stands before me.
Eventually, everything settles as the sun sets behind a purple horizon. The sand turns dull once more, the sky turns black, your eyes will close, but you are still in my arms, your breast rising and falling with the ebb and flow of the tide. That is how I know the sun will rise again in our paradise. It is how I know the sand will be warm and soft once more, and the waves will awaken as you rise from your slumber and we embrace as lovers do.
Though, this will have to wait, for now I am awed at your beauty in your subtle slumber. Goodnight my love, goodnight, for soon our lips will reunite. We will awaken the sun and release its ethereal starlight.
Too many days since I’ve seen her pretty face
My love has been strong and everyday I’m getting older,
“We will be together again” was the last thing that I told her
And yet our distance stayed the same
Not a day goes by that she’s not on my mind
And there are nights when I dream of seeing her again
Like an angel I can feel her presence
And like a goddess She has touched my heart
But my feelings for her have drifted away
As I live my life day after day
Every moment with her I will never forget
But my heart melted when she left
Memories of her grace have been what pulled me through
But it is time for me to finally let go
I thank her for the love and everything she has given me
But it’s time for me to sleep and set my heart free
I need not know what you want
I care not what you need
I need not fear what it is you desire
This dark passenger rages a dark fire
Once upon a time you controlled my soul
Tempting me into a never ending hole
Foolishly I followed your ways
But no longer will you haunt my days
This dark passenger controls me no more
Its time for me to lock the fucking door
Alone at last I pray for night.
But in the night I fear day-light.
For the day brings nothing but madness my way.
The fear of hearing what they will say
Makes the daylight last forever and
The nights turn quickly into days.
This bleak soul I thought had gone,
Has only stowed away; in the back of my mind.
Waiting for a chance to reveal…
…you say I look sad, but sadness is not my downfall.
Only fear in not knowing what my future holds.
Fear of failing once again, failing you.
The future is my darkness.
And no sun nor star can spark the flame.
No scale in the world could measure your beauty.
And no words could do it true justice.
They simply fall short of what I see.
The thought of even trying brings a shiver down my spine.
For when I open my mouth I never find the words
to explain what I see in the angel before me.
You appeared in my life just as quickly as you vanished.
Yet, your image is burned in my memory.
From the night we said goodbye;
the face I confess to every night.
Only trying to get it right.
I just want to be ready for the day you return.
It may be the last time I get see your smile.
The Way it Goes 